Ha "donmai" is japanese slang, from "don't mind". Means basically the same thing, more like "Whatever"

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List twenty odd facts about yourself, then tag a friend or two to do the same.

1. I dance on a rocking chair to destress myself
2. I can't stop wanting to get away from wherever I am
3. I have a fear of most things starting in D
4. I have dated 64 people
5. Two is my favorite number because it is the only even prime number
6. I've changed dramatically in the last two months
7. I write a poem every single day, minus one or two days
8. If I think about my old friends, I talk in a french accent
9. I'd call Sam before the ambulance
10. My hands steam during the winter
11. My hands get clammy when I'm in love
12. I need to find my own style
13. I have a collection of ties (87 so far)
14. I have a scarf collection
15. I get paranoid about work, so i tend to quit to avoid getting fired
16. I usually quit my jobs in November and March
17. I love giving creative gifts
18. I like writing letters in regular post rather than e-mail
19. I'm very very very emotional on my own
20. My hands always smell a certain way after I've had a good night out with a guy...

I woke up with such a deep feeling of depression and regret. I'm not saying this to get attention, but instead to explain how i fee lright now.

I feel like everything I lived for, I gave up when I broke up with Adam, he wouldn't take me back, which I'm happy he didn't... I'm over him romantically now, however, ever since Romi came into my life, Adam has gotten more and more emotionaslly abusive towards me... he's lashing out and insuting me and overreacting about everuthing.. I feel bad for even meeting Romi in te first place because it's driving me and Adam apart...

However, ever sinc eI met Romi, I feel a great need to be abetter person, I'm more confident about who I am and I feel happier, more often... Whenever he's around, I can't help but be happy about life... like... I could never hurt mayelf again... like I was... He treats me with respect, he doesn't hurt me and if he does he appologizes. He refuses to make me walk home by myself, and he doesn't drain my wallet. I want to be a better person...

However, this morning I felt like I never deserved to meet Romi, that everything in me didn't exist, that if he knew me fir what i've done in the past, he'd never want to be near me again. I'm not good enough to be around him, even as a friend.. I'm not good enough to date the Bishop's son... He's too sweet, he has too much of a future, he's too spiritual... There's no way I could ever be good enough....

thats how i feel, thank you

My new best friend carries around a machine gun and compact nuclear explosives. He often used his eyes to shoot lazers out at things, and he has a frog zord he can call upon at any time he pleases... sometimes, though, it does get annoying to be hangin gout with him and suddenly the TV sets on fire... but, yknow, whatever!

oh well....

I'm at Vicky's house.... last night, a partay... and yeah... that5's my life this weekend... my face was apinted too... and her mom won't cut my hair because she "doesn't want to make a dog's breakfast out of it...." lol... I think it's because she's tired...

Today seems to be a crying day for me... I'm upset with no real reason... I mean... I had fun today... woke up next to my best friend, talked to my other best friend... and hung out with a bunch of the youth.. and work was good to... but I started crying for no reason... and i couldn't stop crying...

I met a girl today, not a girl to date but a friend named... becky... and she told me how she met the one she knows she's going to marry.. but not for a while... I'm jelouse...

well... I'm not allowed to go to sudbury, turns out I'm too old to go to the activity, so I can't get a ride with Jarom and his parents...